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For a long time, I haven't been in the best mood. I'd be moody, serious, or depressed. At times, I'd have my occasional happy bursts when friends made me happy<3 But overall, I was a wreck.

But now, I'm starting to scare myself. I find myself wanting to go back to old habits I quit a couple years ago, 'cuz I knew they'd get me nowhere. & I notice that I'm more willing to put myself in more risky situations. But over all of that, I scare myself with the thoughts I'm starting to think.
Well. I don't know. It's hard to get it out on words.
I've been thinking about it a lot, but I don't actually think I'll do it. But then again who knows. I didn't think me & Christina could actually jaywalk across the busy 4-lane intersection, but we did.
If I actually do accomplish it, I just want to say sorry in advance; for being a disappointment to my family&friends.

[Don't ask me what it is, I won't tell you.]

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Thank you Annie&Chuckie for helping me <3